Difficult Times

Today or more like yesterday I decided I should actually put my thoughts down unto paper or in this context blog it all out. Yes, rant to the world or whoever that's interested to read my rants.

This is a new beginning, so why not begin a new chapter with something completely new such as blogging.

To begin my new chapter, one extremely dreadfuly depressing day I decided to take a walk. Although I was with company I felt like being alone to clear my thoughts. At that very moment I was walking towards Subang Square I decided to be bold and get a completely new hair cut or more like I began with the intensions of getting a hair wash. You know something relaxing and pampering. That was the how the hiar cut came about. Still think it makes me look so cina.

Although I am a noisy and talkative person in nature I have a tendency of keeping deeper things to myself. Things I do not like sharing with the world which have a tendency to lead to confusion. That is how I get into my depression state.

So that was the start, till I went to Phuket recently and saw a tattoo shop. Then for some reason out of no where I grew balls to get a tattoo. I mean I have wanted it for ages but never had the guts to do it. Oh well, the only reason I didn't chicken out was because Giresh didn't let me. He made me stay till it was done. Good thing though, I love the tattoo so much and am so proud that I finally got my "solemn fairy". The thing is now that I got a tattoo I feel so brave.

Perhaps with the sudden courage, I mean if I can endure the process of tattoooing I should be fine with everything else. Firstly, I want to get my tongue pierced. It was in the list of things I wanted to get since school. In the list includes 2 piercings on the left ear, 3piercings on the right, a nose stud, tongue piercing, belly piercing and my fairy tattoo. But I guess I'll rule out belly piercing since it seems very outdated. Maybe I'll still do it. We'll see.

Definately tongue piercng first before belly. I can only imagine tongue piercing to hurt more. Besides all the piercings, I would like to bungy jump. Like I said, why not. I have the guts now. I just endured the feeling of a guy dragging a blade through my skin. What else can hurt more?

But then again,if I were to do it, I can only imagine my parents worrying that something is. Oh well couldn't be the least bothered. The only thing is, resources are low. Damn it! I guess everytime I'm in an uncomfortable situation I do something extreme. The last time it happen I had my ears pierced countless of times and then my nose stud. Bloody emo right?

So yes the tongue piercing is next to come. Let's hope soon before the balls I grew disapear. Then when I get my ideal weight back with tons of exercise I shall get the belly piercing.

Now, let's see when my next update would actually be me posting all of the above=)