Departure

The last time meeting Mei at Bistro with the girls didn't strike me that I was going to feel anything when she left. I mean how long has it been since she came back and I was already getting the hang of them coming and going. I mean the girls who are abroad. They come back for a month at the most and just as abrubtly as they come home they leave but this time when we were about to depart into our respective vehicles, there she stood and we hugged. Saying our goodbyes. But for some reason, this time I really didn't want her to go.

We hugged countless of times, four I think it was but that still didn't cut it. I mean four hugs till the next time I see you again? Which would be easily another year or more. I mean it's been a year and a half since I last saw her, then she came back for a month then leave again. I mean I didn't spend my entire month with her, both busy with our own schedules but sometimes I wish I could have all of them back here again. Just like how the old times were. I miss them so much. Sooks, Mei, Ame, Grace. I really do.

And I swear I was close to tears and that would be an achievement for me to actually be able to sum up any emotion whatsoever, but after I drove of, I felt empty but all i could do was shrug it off. But now a couple of days later, I'm feeling it. I miss the girls company. Being able to just be extremely honest with someone without bullshiting. That's who they are to me. I don't have to hide or lie or to be pretensive. I can just be me and I know they will still love me.

Sometimes I feel like it would take a miracle for all of them to come back at the same time of the year.....