Irritation at station 1

Irritating as it is, sometimes you wish you could just stop thinking or remembering and make it all go away. Some people use tattoo's as a permanent reminder of their past but I instead need only to look at something as silly as a watch to feel upset or better still hear a silly sound/noise is enough to bring a downpour of emotion.

It is clear that the past will not let itself go and I have to learn how to slowly accept facts and move on. What if you want to but seemingly can't? It's best describe as being stuck in a fucking room and everything you hate or makes you sad surrounds you, leaving you no place to run.

Difference is, I'm not stuck anywhere but merely stuck in reality and cannot proceed to the next course. I have already rip open the package to the next step but cannot dig into it. It's like a dinner course per say, you've had your starter, done with it, stuck your fork into your main course but yet want to go back to the starter you've already finish.

I'm rambling on as I can't seem to get my mind of it. It will be fun to one day look back and count the many notes I have but trying to let go. Beginning with this one:)

Realising life's wonderful faces:)

Just had a drink with what I use to call the usual bunch, that would be 2 years ago actually. I'm finding myself lonelier these days. Guess everyone does as they grow older?

You seem to realise what true friends mean and you tend to divide friends into groups of people.

1. the ones you can count on

2. the ones just for laughs

3. the hello and goodbye people

4. usual hanging out people

5. the ones you put a smile on your face just for fucks sake

Yeah, that's all I can come up with for now. Blog's a little depressing for now. Going through a rather depressing phase if I may say and the depressing phase would include very sadly depressing movies.

Speaking about movies, thought Alice in Wonderland by Tim Burton was a disappointment, not horrifyingly bad but could have been better. Moon is a must watch. Even if you're not a sci-fi fan, you'd love it. Story goes as, man's on the moon for a 3 year contract as he's contract's bout to end, something happens:)

Go check it out!